Wednesday, January 02, 2008

PEAKS AND VALLEYS

Well as I look back on the landscape that is 2007 - I have to say it wasn't a hugely standout year, for me, really.

Well to be fair it did have some highs and it had some lows - like most years.

I lost friends (and lovers) and gained friends (and lovers). Some friends left of their own accord, some were pushed and some have passed away.

But if I sit down and list the comings and goings - it's balanced. The universe is always balanced. Have you noticed that?

I am never good at letting go - be it friends, lovers, family members - due to death or circumstance. It's particularly hard when the endings are bad. I have a handful of 'good friends' where things ended badly in my life time, (one this year) and I truly regret that.

Each time it happens though, I vow to do better next time. A few times this year I've nearly made the same errors in judgment and I've remembered the friends who've gone before, and it's made me re-evaluate my tactic - so at least something was learned from my painful lessons! Hooray.

So here's to my friends, past, present and future!

HIT THE ROAD, JACK

2007 didn't contain a two-month road trip - so it would have a tough time competing with 2006. But I do have plans afoot to traverse the globe a fair bit in 2008 (God willing) so that's an auspicious start. At the moment - I'll stick to the US and UK and if finances permit - I will look at Brazil and of course the southern hemisphere.

Speaking of "Jack" - I've been watching a marathon of '24' (season 6) as it's my dad's favorite show. I think he'll be happy he can talk about this with me!

BRITDOC - THE PEAK

Well on a positive slant looking back over last year, the highlight of the entire year was the BRITDOC festival in July. It was one of the best, most scary and challenging, weeks of my life. I learned a lot. I met some wonderful people (many I still keep in touch with) and had some fantastic meetings with some of the TOP film makers in the UK. I feel so honored to have been able to do my pitch there.

CHARITY BEGINS AT HOME (OR SOMETHING)

Well, good news, the car is about half-full of bags and boxes to donate to a Cancer charity and Oxfam. I will drop the books at the Oxfam book store in the west end and the clothes to Imperial Cancer store - at the end of the week.

It feels really good on so many levels to give. That sounds kind of lame, I realise, or at the very least trite....but I don't need this stuff (I have far too much). Someone else might and if they buy it - proceeds go to a cause that has taken many friends and family members (Cancer).

Yesterday, I was speaking to my friend Oz (who coincidentally is in OZ at the moment though lives in Turkey these days) and he's back home because his father just died. So many of us have lost friends and family members this year and in fact this month, alone.

Not only that Oz, but on New Year's Day I spoke to my friend Dave (who is "mum's" son) and he told me about his friend's mother who died on Boxing Day. She was tired after some festivities - went up for a nap and never woke up. I am not sure which is worse - losing a parent (or friend or partner) on the holidays or on your birthday - which is when my mother left - many years ago now.

Either way it sucks.

To add to this month's sadness we don't need to look further than here in Scotland to PHIL O'DONNELL's sudden death last week. I am not a football person, I'd never even heard of him, but I can still feel such empathy for the loss his family (wife and four kids!) must be feeling at the moment. 35 years old and fit as feck - and he still goes in the blink of an eye.

My point is not to depress anyone by saying this but only to serve as a reminder of how precious and uncertain our time on this planet is. Wasting time in jobs we don't like, buying tons of stuff we don't actually need, worrying about what other people think about us (and if they like us), constantly getting wasted is all a waste of a perfectly good life. So to throw out that old chestnut - Carpe Diem. As a New Year is upon us - forget making resolutions you won't keep - and simply vow to make more of your life than you have been doing - in whatever capacity that means to you.

2008 - GONNA BE GREAT

There are numerous threads about the New Year on the site. Some about goals for the upcoming year. I've got a number of them in my head and a few I feel happy enough to share. They won't surprise anyone who knows me - to finish the SYBD BOOK after many years of researching it and film the SYBD FILM.

I have other aims for the year - socialise more, make new friends (and more), to laugh more and buy less stuff. I'll continue to write and photograph creatively. Really I am just gonna vow to help as many of the world's lovelorn as possible.

ASTROLOGY IS RIGHT


I just found this on one of my site members' FB profiles:

CANCER - The Beauty

"MOST AMAZING KISSER." (Good start! Wayhey) "Very high appeal. A Cancer's love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet in your life. Entirely creative person, most are artists and insane (respectfully speaking). They perfected sex and do it often. Extremely random. An Ultimate Freak. Extremely funny and is usually the life of the party. Most cancers will take you under their wing and into their hearts where you will remain forever. Cancers make love with a passion beyond compare. Spontaneous. Not a Fighter, but will kick your ass good if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to!"

How right is that? Ha ha ha. Well it made me smile anyway. I only ever believe astrology when it's right! :)

Happy New Year my lovelies.

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